New Year

Happy?  Not?  Something in between?  I think it will be the latter. 2012 is the first year in my life without Mark somewhere in this world.  Even when we were children, teens, and young adults, he was here, 3 and a half years older than me.  We didn't know each other but I wouldn't be surprised if our paths crossed now and then especially when he lived in Renton.  I like to think of us as waiting for our true loves and we found each other in  October of 1976.  Now only I will see, barring illness or accident, who wins the presidency; how Dexter will turn out, whether the spring is warm or ugly like last year's spring.